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Cems momoval meuRles

 

RmerTo, goneba rogor momewamla! rogor gamovifite! rogor veRar vxedav gadarCenis gzas! warsulis mkvdari aCrdilis garda rogor aRaravin miyvars! rogor marto var – amayi, yalbi, zviadi da miukarebi.

 

       mSvidobiT Cemo lamazo warsulo; mSvidobiT ferado sizmrebo, ubiwo ocnebebo, fiqrebo... mSvidobiT spetako siyvarulo; mSvidobiT bavSvuro SiSo da gulaCuyebulo siZulvilo... mSvidobiT yvela da yvelafero. ugrZnoblobav, keTili iyos Seni fexi Cems am gatanjul da metis-meti gvemiT gabuJebul sxeulSi, siyvaruliT daglejil gulSi, cxovrebiT gaupatiurebul sulSi da gaSavebul gonebaSi.

 

       rogor metireba da veRar vtiri... rogor menatreba da veRar vnatrob... RmerTo, siyvaruli minda! minda, Cemi Tavi Rirseul arsebas uangarod msxverplad vuZRvna. geZeb, sanatrelo... geZeb dRisiT da RamiT, cxadSi da sizmarSi, fiqrsa da ocnebaSi...  geZeb mdumarebis RrialiT da ganwiruli vedrebis oromtrialiT... uxmod geZaxi... mipasuxe, Sena xar?

 

       – xo, me var... me var spetaki, keTili, gonieri, mamaci da faqizi ocneba, – Seni momavali... me var.

 

       RmerTo, goneba rogor gaminaTda! rogor gavZlierdi! rogori sixarbiT vewafebi utyuari gadarCenis uSret nakaduls! rogor miyvars Cemi awmyo da warsuli, – Cemi momavali. gana isev ise amayi, yalbi, zviadi da miukarebi var?

      

17 noemberi, 2003 weli

 

 

solilokvi 2:

Cems sindiss

 

gamarjoba sindiso,

 

       yoveldRe gelodi, magram mainc rogor moulodnelad damadeqi Tavs maSin, roca usindisobis WaobSi yelamde Cavifeli, cxovrebis WuWyiani nasufralis TqvlefiT piri gaviSave da brmad nasroli tyuiliTYgonebis Tvali sabolood davibrmave.

 

       SenTan mosasvleli piri rom ar mqonda, yuri moviyrue, fexi aviTrie da bolos sruliad dagiviwye kidec. ai axla pirispir varT. ici, quCaSi rom Semxvedrodi, ver gicnobdi, arada me da Sen xom bavSobidan erTad gavizardeT.

 

       sindisi:

– gaxsovs bavSoba?

 

       maxsovs! maxsovs!!! maxsovs ubiwo cremli, wrfeli wyena, ndoba, rwmena da simarTle. maxsovs Semodgomis saRamo... Cabnelebuli oTaxi... fiqri... wyeniT Camoqnili cremli... simyudrove da mSvidi bedniereba, am usasrulo bednierebis samudamod dakargvis SiSi.

 

       aRarafris meSinia, aRarafris! marTla aRarafris! guladi var! mxolod veRar vtiri, aRaraferi mwyins, warsulis mkvdari aCrdilis da feradi ocnebis garda aRaravis da aRarafris mwams, simarTle Ramis sevdian arSiadRa iqca, – dRe orpirobis da siyalbis erTguli mona var, sulSi mxolod mSfoTvare Tebervali boboqrobs... oRond isev ise Cabnelebuli oTaxi... fiqri... wyeniT Camoqnili cremli... obloba da usasrulo martooba damrCa.

 

       RmerTo! rogor mxsomebia yvelaferi. rogor kargad mxsomebixar Senc, Cemo sindiso. RmerTo, mainc rogori keTilsindisieri usindiso vyofilvar.

 

3 dekemberi, 2003

    

 

solilokvi 3:

mSobliuri aRsareba

     

uremi var. zogi faetons meZaxis, zogi etls, zogic droSkas, magram uremi var... ho, moyanyalebuli skamebiT, gacveTil-gaxunebuli Sindisferi xaverdiT, iaffasiani TasmebiT da sxva kidev mravali amgvari siyalbiT da orpirobiT uxvad gawyobil-Selamazebuli soflis ugvano uremi. ugvano-meTqi vambob... iyo Jami, roca myarad videqi oTx Tvalze, Cemi am saimedo oTxi borbliT mSvidad da dinjad mivezidebodi uxv mosavals soflis Saragzaze, imediT vcocxlobdi, imediT vsuldgmulobdi, imediT veweodi cxovrebis Wapans, patiosani imedis saocari mamoZravebeli ZaliT vmoZraobdi, oTxi Svilis, Cemi oTxi saimedo borblis imediT imedianad miviwevdi win.

 

       gadiodnen wlebi. davberdi. borblebsac TandaTan sixiste da bzarebi SeeparaT. TiToeulma Tvalma sakuTari sisuste kargad Seicno. Cemi oTxi mSromeli, magram sulmokle da Wkuasusti Svili erTgvarma SiSma Seipyro, – marcxisa da CamorCenis SiSma. gasakviri ki araa, – sakuTari sisustis SecnobisTanave, swored es SiSi ipyrobs da amonebs cxovrebis ferxulSi saimedod Cabmul mSromel kacs, suls uSfoTebs, guls uRonebs da gonebas uZabunebs. rogorc ukve giTxariT, Tavidan Tvlebs mxolod sakuTari naklis, sixistis da simyifis, eSinodaT, mere ki TiToeuls saerTo ferxulSi CamorCenis SiSi gauCnda, – daaviwydaT rom Cveni winsvla erTmaneTis jibrze rbola ki ara, Sexmatkbilebuli ferxuli iyo. mokled, sakuTari naklis gamomJRavnebis SiSiT gaborotdnen da erTmaneTis SeSurdaT. JamTa ganmavlobaSi TavianTi borotebis gamovlineba aRar iTakiles, Cemic aRar moeridaT, ojaxuri idilia Semigines, erTmaneTis jibriT ise Caebnen erTmaneTis gasaswrebad gaCaRebul umizno rbolaSi. umiznod mirbodnen, mec, erT xans sakuTari Svilebis, Cemi saimedo oTxi Tvlis muyaiTobiTa da SromiT pativcemul urems, bednier mamas, qalaqis gaxrwnil da binZur quCebSi aRma-daRma umowyalod damaqrolebdnen. soflis xvav-baraqiani uremi qalaqis saroskipo faetonad maqcies. iaffasiani sunamos, Tambaqos, Rvinisa da aryis myrali suniT amxades namusi. amden rbolaSi TviTonac cxvir-piri dailewes, moyanyaldnen, mec momaryies. eh! moryevas ar vCivi, saCivari da savalalo isaa, rom am erT Jams patiosan da wesier kacs moxucebulobis wlebSi simSvide damirRvies, sindisi da Rirseba wamarTves, Tavmoyvareoba damikarges da sakuTari siregvniT unamusod namusic amxades, wesieri uremi ki uwesobis sazizRar faetonad maqcies.

 

       Sercxvenil da pativayril urems dasamali raRa maqvs, barem Cemi da Cemi ugvano Svilebis vinaobasac gagimxelT, – iqneb Cemi marcxi TqvenTvis karg gakveTilad gamodges, rom Tqven mainc airidoT SiSisa da Suris momakvdinebeli seni. me saqarTvelo mqvia, Cems oTx wamxdar Svils ki mamuliSvili, erisTavi, patrioti da moqalaqe.

 

saCuqrad miiReT es aRsareba, axla ki Jamia, soflis Saragzas gamiyenoT, Jamia, sasaflao miwas miabaroT Cemi nagvemi da gaupatiurebuli sxeuli, Jamia, samudamod dammarxoT da damasamaroT.

 

7 dekemberi, 2003 weli

 

 

solilokvi 4:

gulis reqviemi

 

      vai deda, vaime deda, dediko!!!

       vaime RmerTo!!!

       vaime!!!

      

       rogor amaRelveT, rogor amaforiaqeT, erTgulsa da wesier guls rogor umowyalod damingrieT mSvidi da bednieri cxovreba, rogor daudevrad damirRvieT Zalumi feTqvis Sexmatkbilebuli riTmi, rogori elviseburi siswrafiT gamaqaneT siyvarulis aalebul ufskrulSi gadasaCexad, dasawvavad da dasabugad, rogor mawameT, damtanjeT da mtkivneuli dardis naglejebad gulze rogor sasikvdilod gamxeTqeT.

 

       brma xar mzakvaro gonebav! sulmokle xar ukeTuro sulo! avxorci xar ususuro sxeulo! erTbaSad dabrmavdiT, gadairieT, sul-mTlad gagiJdiT ise ukanmouxedavad gadaeSviT aforiaqebuli siyvarulis damRupvel morevSi. siyvarulis sitkbom Tavbru dagxviaT, gailaReT, gaixareT, mere ki, roca Tqvenze kidev ufro qarafSuta siyvaruls Tqveni erTferovani qaTinaurebi yelSi amouvida da zurgi SegaqciaT, piri icvaleT, momibrundiT da siyvarulis mware cremlebiT lamis damaxrCeT.

 

       ciliswamebaSic magrebi xarT – gamoSterebul enas rogorc gindaT ise atyaptyapebT: “guliT Semiyvardao”, “gulis vardiao”, “mTeli guliT miyvarso”... tyuili! me ra SuaSi var? RmerTi mowamea, Tqveni Tavqariani siyvarulis neqtari arasodes miwovia... dReniadag TavCaxrili vSromob, patiosnad vfeTqav, imisTvis viRwvi da vsuldgmulob, rom sasicocxlo Zala ar mogakloT, sazrdo mogawodoT, saarsebo wyaro mogceT, Tqven ki siyvarulobanis TamaSiT erTobiT, TvrebiT, tkbebiT, meore dRes mwared momkili Sxamiani nayofiT mwamlavT, mtanjavT, gulze mxeTqavT... Tanac cils mwamebT, – siyvaruliT mokvdao, metismet siyvaruls ver gauZlo da gaskdao. rogorc Tqven ityviT! siyvaruliT ki ara, patiosani SromiT, uzomo dardiT da usasrulo martoobiT momeRo bolo.

 

       vai deda, vaime deda, dediko!!!

       vaime RmerTo!!!

       vaime!!!

 

14 dekemberi, 2003 weli

 

  

solilokvi 5:

idealuri dialogi

 

– ratom tiri?

– marto var.

 

– aravin gyavs?

–Aaravin, arc aravin myolia.

 

– rogor, ki, magram deda? mama? da? Zma? megobari?

– ara, imaT Cemi gacnoba ar surdaT, – dabadebidan marto var,

  sul-marto, sul martod-marto, martosuli var.

 

– ginda gagicno?

– minda, magram meSinia.

 

– risi geSinia?

– tkivilis.

 

– ra tkivilis?

– rom gamicno, ar mogewono da martod damtovo?

  guli metkineba.

 

– rom gagicno, momewono da Segiyvaro?

– Semiyvaro?

 

– ho, mTeli Cemi arsebiT rom Segiyvaro.

– mec Segiyvareb.

 

– miyvarxar.

– miyvarxar.

 

15 dekemberi, 2003 weli

 

 

solilokvi 6:

sasikvdilod daWrili tkivivilis ciklidan

 

– gzaabneuli var, warsulis sevdiani aCrdiliviT umiznod davdivar, momovals veZeb, awmyo ki ver mipovnia.

 

       – ratom Svilo, imedi gadagewura?

 

       – ara, imedi isev maqvs. gaxsovs, oTxi wlis viyavi... gazafxuli... mindorSi vseirnobdiT... maswavlidi, RmerTi arsebobso, – yvelaze gonieri, keTili, spetaki da yovlisSemZle siyvaruli, romelic safrTxisgan dagicavs, gaWirvebidan gixsnis, imedis Zalas yovelTvis mogcemso. gavocdi da gkiTxe, Senze gonieri da yovlisSemZlea-meTqi? “xo, mama” – mipasuxe. gamikvirda, magram dagijere.

 

       – xo, maxsovs. mere?

 

       – pirvel dRes skolaSi rom mimiyvane, xom gaxsovs?

      

       – maxsovs, maxsovs, Svilo...

   

       – hoda, ai im pirvel dRes... meSinoda... Zalian meSinoda... meSinoda maswavleblebis, bavSvebis, mSoblebis, xalxis, skolis... mTeli RvarZliani samyarosi... yvelaze metad ki Seni Sercxvenis meSinoda, – ar mindoda SenTvis sircxviliT Tavi momeWra.

 

       (RmerTo, rogor mwared maxsovs!!!)

 

       meore gakveTili daiwyo. sapirfareSo mominda. gamiWirda. mrcxvenoda. mrcxvenoda, magram xeli mainc aviwie (o, rogor mrcxvenoda...), “maswavlebelo, saWiro oTaxSi SeiZleba?” ­– xma amikankalda.

 

       – ratom geSinoda, mama?

 

       – ici, maswavlebelma ra zizRiT gadmomxeda veeberTela saTvaleebis zemodan? rogori gamyinavi amreziT damaSterdnen klaselebi: “ucnauri! uzrdeli! Tavxedi! suliT maxinji!” – gamouTqmeli SeZaxilebis talRa eniTgamouTqmeli simyraliT moedo saklaso oTaxs, da gana marto oTaxs? – derefnebs, darbazebs, skolas, qalaqs, qveyanas, msoflios... _ mTels Cems gonebasa da warmosaxvas. momeCvena, TiTqos, am boroti talRis Rriali mTel dawyevlil da gaupatiurebul samyaros yuris barabans risxviTa da mrisxanebiT ungrevda.

 

       sulis aseTi boRmiani SeZaxilebis triumfiT gamaciles gareT. maswavlebelma mkacrad gamafrTxila, xuT wuTSi aq iyavio, – ra vici bavSvma xuTi wuTi? saaTi me ara da araferi... sxva ra gza mqonda, gaviqeci, rom momeswro. oRond, Tan ukan vixedebodi, ara, imis ki ar meSinoda, ukan xom aravin momdevs-meTqi... mindoda, saklaso oTaxis karebi damemaxsovrebina, rom mere derefanSi ar davkarguliyavi. Davimaxsovre, – TeTri karebi. saswrafod moviSore mosaSorebeli, xelebi gadavibane, gapiwkinebuli cxvirsaxociT gavimSrale da derefanSi gamovedi. karebis Zebna daviwye. Cemi saklaso oTaxis TeTri karebi... vaime! Tavszari dameca, – rogor amovicno Cemi oTaxi am dawyevlili skolis wyeul derefanSi roca, rom yvela kari TeTria? vaime! es ra vqeni! ameria gza-kvali... Tavgza rogor amebna... ra viRono, ra gzas davadge, ra vqna, RmerTo, didebulo... miSvele. gemudarebi, miSvele... ar gamwiro... ras gargebs Sen, didsa da Zlevamosil RmerTs, aseTi patara da ugunuri arsebis simwriT nagvemi cremlebi? ra vqna, RmerTo, ra viRono... gexvewebi, gemudarebi, miSvele... swor gzaze damayene... moCvenebiTad gaTeTrebul-gaspetakebul karebebs Soris WeSmariti codnisa da sikeTis TeTri kari mapovnine, sircxvilsa da Tavis moWras gadamarCine... sakuTari adgili mimiCine fuRuro dedamiwis gaSavebul zurgze gzaabneul da dakargul arsebas. mxolod Seni imedi maqvs, RmerTo...

 

       – Svilo, zviado... uflis imedi nu mogiSalos RmerTma...   

 

       ­– ho, imedi maqvs, veZeb saklaso oTaxis TeTr karebs... vuZleb mware da Sxamian cremlebs... imedi ki maqvs, namdvilad maqvs... Sen ase gamzarde da imitom.

 

 

solilokvi 7:

gonieri siyvarulis sikvdili

 

gamarjoba Cemo eva,

       (RmerTo, ra iqneba, marTla Cemi iyo!!!)

 

       rogor xar? rogor xar aseTi lamazi... aseTi Tvinieri, spetaki da gonieri rogor xar? rogor momenatre...

 

       sad xar dakargulio, ikiTxav. _ marTla davikarge, ici? Senze ocnebaSi, fiqrSi da sizmarSi davikarge... gzis gakvleva miWirs... saRamos zeca bedis ukuRmarTobiT moiqufra, siSorem Cemi erTad-erTi manaTobeli varskvlavi daundobeli wyvdiadis uZiro napralebSi erTianad STanTqa, imedismkvleli martooba Tebervlis susxiani da umowyalo grigaliviT SemoiWra uiRblo siyvaruliT gafatrul Cems am mSfoTvare da bavSuri ocnebiT dabzarul gulSi, – gza-kvali sruliad amebna.

 

       sxva moZebneo? sxva qali loginSi Sxamiani gveliviT rogor Caviwvino? borotebis matls SenTvis mcemi guli rogor vaRrRnevino? ganwiruli samyaros danTxeuli sisxliT amyralebul tuCebze kaciWamia kudian dedabers rogor vakoco an SenTvis siyvarulis simwriT marad dakawruli marTali tuCebi sakocnelad rogor vuboZo? eva!!! goneba? sxva Tu ara genaneba... Senze mSfoTvare fiqriT dRe da Ram gatanjuli goneba eSmakis kaxpas saqorwino ZRvenad rogor mivce?

 

       eva, siamayis grZnoba ki ar mklavs, Seni siyvarulis marTali da Zalumi grZnoba mtanjavs da mawamebs, uimedobiT maxrCobs da guls miklavs.

 

aRaravin var: erT xans gazafxulis xalasi ferebiT moxatuli warsulis lamazi furclebi Senze ocnebam Semodgomis mkvdari siyviTliT gamixuna, awmyo Senze fiqriT xelebs Sua gamecala, momavali imedis ar qonam momikla da borotebis maxviliT gagmiruli sabralo imediviT samudamod gadamiwura.

 

vin var uSenod? – warsulis gafituli aCrdili, awmyos sevdiani masxara, momavlis micvalebuli.

 

miyvarxar, eva, marTla miyvarxar...

 

zviadi

    

18 marti, 2004 weli

 

 

[1]solilokvi _ Soliloquy – laTinuri sityvaa _ niSnavs sakuTar TavTan saubars: “solus” _ martoka, “loqui” _ saubari.