kacTa buneba


bunebis piri 1: dedasofeli

      menatrebiT borcvebo da gorakebo... uTqvenobiT sulmTlad davobldi. mere ra aris cxovreba?! ra rig uyvars oblis dabriyveba da daCagvra?! usjulos xom sibralulis ara gaegeba ra. sicocxlisgan gamatyava wyeulma qalaqma! sulis siRrmidan arsebobis wyaro amomiSro! sofeli wamerTva _ babuawverebi, babuawverebi, babuawverebi...

       soflad saflavi Tu meRirseba, es mainc vicode... ramdenjer CamikvrixarT gulSi, ubralono. ramdenjer dagicremliaT Tqveni namiT Cemi Tvalebi. menatrebiT... Tqveni Jamic mova, _ CamikravT gulSi da ase danugeSebuls mimabarebT Cveni soflis madlian miwas. 

       mzeo kaSkaSav, menatreba Seni riJraJi. venacvale Sens sigrZes da siganes, _ alionze rom laRad gaizmorebi xolme casa da dedamiwas Soris. deda mTvarev, Sen raRa mogivida? ase upatronod ratom damagde? uSenobiT rad daaoble Cemi Tvalebi? 

       menatreba papa da bebia, Cveni saxli, sacecxle[1], wignebis karada, Sav-TeTri suraTebi, ezo-kari, borcvebi da gorakebi, soflis Saragza... _ patiosani kacis bediviT mrude da daxlarTuli. ...tye, erTi SexedviT Rrjo da ukareba, magram sakmarisia mis wiaRSi fexi Sedga, rom guli siTboTi da sibraluliT agevsos, – mdinaris piras wylis CxrialiT Zirgamoflatuli da fesvebmongreuli muxebis dardi dResac gulze mawevs... Tvalebidan ar mimdis momtydari axmaxebis dakninebuli medidureba. codoobaa da sxva araferi... arada ramdeni swored ase fesvmongreuli adamiania am qveynad? ...namdvili adamiani...    

       cxovrebas vuZleb... aq, am momxveWelobis seniT sulgamoSignul da fuRuro xalxSi RmerTs ra xania veZeb da... ver mipovia. miWirs, _ uRmrTod cxovreba ar SemiZlia. sofeli menatreba, Cemi sofeli...

17 dekemberi, 2005 weli

 

bunebis piri 2: nergisvedreba
 
       nu amomZirkvav, adamiano, codvas nu izam. me am miwis Svili var, am miwis mkvidri, RviZli, namdvili. nu momwyvet da soflad nu gadamrgav, Torem, xom ici, usaTuod movkvdebi. damtie tye-Rred. Cemi bina swored aq aris. niadags daxede, _ dalocvili, ra rig cdilobs Cems Cakvras, alerss, gamozrdas. alerss rom vambob, es alersic sxvaa, ufro WeSmariti, qarTuli da daflatuli. mSobliuria yvelaferi, Zalzed nacnobi. ai im muxas gaxede, ferdobze roa sul martod brZnulad gamefebuli. gana marTla sulmarto da ukarebaa? _ ici, papad mekuTvnis. moRuSuli, mxolod me Tu gamiRimebs xolme. axla nakaduli naxe, ra rig cdilobs CuxCuxs, es kekluci; ra rig sixaruliT evleba qvidan qvas; nebieri, sicocxles aJReradebs, marTobs, maxarebs da Tavisi sicocxliT mec manebivrebs. yorano!!! modi da dardi SemomCivle, ubeduro; Seni Wiri Cemad gaxade... TqvenSi amas vin aitans?! muSts mouRerebT, joxs esvriT da uRrialebT,  “ wadi, daikargeo”... ras erCiT, bedSavs? ra iciT, iqneb, vis glovobs? glova da tkivili mxolod kacis xvedri rodia?! amomTxare, amomZirkve, piriswyali amxade da glovasa da tkivils mere naxav, Se, gulqva Sena! 
 
       adamiano, mainc ra xar aseTi Rrjo da ugulo... netav, ra dedam gagzarda...

       nergi.

9 marti, 2005 weli

 

bunebis piri 3: werili
      
      sofeli menatreba, Cemi sofeli: saxli, Zveli aveji, xaliCa, wignebis karada, sanovagiT savse samzareulo, pianino, muxis mama-papuri sawoli, Zveli savarZeli, sacecxle da am sacecxlis gvirgvinze gamofenili Zveli suraTebi, _ Zveli Jami... menatreba... misi simartive, sisadave, ubraloeba da am sisadaviT da ubraloebiT miRebuli uSreti siTbo _ natifi kacis gulis feTqva, gonebis sazrdo, sulis malamo da saerTo jamSi dRes ase Zlier monatrebuli uSfoTveloba.
 
       aRar maqvs yovelive es. qalaqSi vcxovrob, _ usicocxlo arsebobas cxovrebas Tu uwodeb. binaSi var gamomwyvdeuli. guls mireven misi TeTrad SeRebili kedlebi! _ Tavi sapyrobileSi mgonia. arc sacecxle maqvs, arc Cemi wignebis karada, arc aveji da aRarc suraTebi, _ minda, rom warsuls mivtiro da uamaTod esec aRar SemiZlia... _ warsuli CemSi ki suldgmulobs, magram... misi xateba Tvalebidan sulmTlad gamiqra.

       aq arafris Jami ar aris viruli muSaobis garda, _ ici, mTeli Tvea leqsi ar wamikiTxavs... locviTac veRar vloculob... damijere, aq arafris Jami ar aris, miTumetes iseTi Rirseuli saqmis, rogoric sibrZne da siyvarulia _ amitomacaa, veRarc warsuli miyvars, veRarc awmyo da veRarc momovali, sibrZne kidev, am ukidegano muSaobis Sedegad, sulidan sulmTlad gamomecancla. Rirseuli saqmis Jami ar aris-meTqi, aki giTxari?! _ aq erTad-erTi saqme ician _ fulis keTeba.AmaTTvis saqme fulia, fuli _ saqme. ai aseT uazro da usasrulo brunvaSia es xalxi dReniadag Cabmuli: finia xom ginaxavT, cimfi da wunkala finia, sakuTari kudis dasaWerad erT adgilze rom trialebs xolme da manam ar moisvenebs, sanam qanci ar gawydeba? swored asea es xalxic! _ risTvis trialeben, risTvis borgaven, risTvis iRwvian, risTvis da ra miznisTvis? _ gawyda amaTi uazro jiSi da ujiSo jilagi!

       mindvris yvavilebi minda, cocxali, miwaSi fesvebgadgmuli da daukrefavi, _ yviTeli babuawverebi, axlad rom amoiwvereba xolme da xaliCasaviT gamefineba Cems ezoSi. aq xom es ar aris? _ ar minda amaTi binZuri bazris yoyloCina vardebi... _ mefuria, zesTamCeni[2], civi, ukareba da damcinavi, rac mTavaria kidev, sicocxles mokveTili, makratliT moWrili da vazaSi datusaRebuli. me Cemi babuawverebi minda, _ leqsiviT ubralo da lamazi qaliviT Tbili da megobruli...

       “tye minda”, _ rom vityvi xolme, amaT tyiuri vgonivar. viyo tyiuri, oRondac amaTsaviT kaciWamia nu viqnebi, maRalo RmerTo. aq tye ar aris. parkSi Tavs SeboWilad vgrZnob, _ bunebrivi araa da ra vqna, xelovnurad Camwkrivebuli sul erTi zomis naZaladevad galamazebuli xeebi, xo, buneba-gasxluli da arakaci mebaRis xeliT dakodili xeebi, rogor Seviyvaro, an SroSanebiT mofenili tborebi ranairad viamo? _ ar minda! ar minda gasxluli buCqebis mofereba! verc tanSi gadaWrili WadrebiT tkbeba suli! tropikuli SroSana xom mwamlavs, guls mirevs da gonebas miSmagebs, _ ra jandabad minda ucxo miwis Sxamiani yvavili?! me xom am miwis Svili var! me xom yvelaferi mxolod mSobliuri menatreba!
 
       ara, aq ver gavixareb, _ baRSi gadarguli nergiviT var... mokveTili fesvebi mSobliur tyeSi maqvs oxrad darCenili.

       sofeli menatreba, RmerTo, Cemi sofeli, _ iqaa samSoblo, sibrZne, siyvaruli da RmerTi. 

1 dekemberi, 2005 weli


 
bunebis piri 4: bunebrivi tkivili 

      ucxoeTSi var gadaxvewili...

       Cemi saxlis ukan uRrani tyea. am tyeSi patara saqarTveloa: ukve sami welia Cvevad meqca mis wiaRSi Treva da xetiali. Znelia mayvlis buCqebSi gzis gakvleva, mwarea eklebis nakawrebi, mtkiva sxeuli, sisxlic mdis xolme, magram... Tavs mainc kargad vgrZnob, _ cxovrebis nakawrs es ar jobia? _ mzakvroba amas ara aqvs da adamianuri gesli, – bunebrivia.

20 ianvari, 2008 weli

 


bunebis piri 5: sazogadoebrivi SedarebiToba sruli simarTlis winaaRmdeg

      TiTqosda adamianebi Tanacxovrebam gadaagvarao. sazogadoebaSi yvelaferi SedarebiTia, – adamianTa warmateba, sibrZne, silamaze, simdidre, siZliere da vin mosTvlis kidev ra ganZi da ra saunje edareba, izomeba, iTvleba da, mxolod erTmaneTTan upiratesobis “zusti” dadgenis Semdeg, yoveldRiurad kanondeba, eZleva, irTmeva, icvleba da iyideba amaoebis cicqna bazarSi. kacTa Soris SedarebiTobam Cakla ubraloeba da bunebrivoba. magaliTisTvis sibrZne aviRoT, _ iman yvelaze meti iciso, ityvian xolme. simdidrezec igives amboben, – amisTana mdidari meore ar dadiso. brma xar adamiano, rom adamianuri SedarebiTobiT zomav sakuTar Tavs da Seni cxovrebis miznebs da miRwevebs! sakuTari azris siviwrove erTxel mainc rom dainaxo, Sens naWuWa codnas uflis ukidegano sibrZnes ratom ar Seadareb? anda Seni qonebis Jangmokidebul oqros da vercls _ mTeli samyaros sabados? gandidebis ZiebaSi xar dabadebidan! diax, gandidebis ZiebaSi da am ndomas mxolod imiT ikmayofileb, rom an warmatebiT, an sibrZniT, an silamaziT, an simdidriT, an Zal-RoniT Tavs sxva adamianze metad warmoaCen xolme. mere rogor dakankaleb da ra TavgamodebiT icav SeZenil ganZs? rogor cdilob simdidre ar gagequrdos, silamaze ar dagiberdes, goneba ar mogidundes da ganaTleba arsad dagekargos? vai Sens Wkuas, ubedurs! imas ver mimxvdarxar, rom SeZenili ganZi Seni bunebisTvis ucxoa, Sen ar gekuTvnis, Torem RmerTi bavSobidan Cagidebda sulSi yovelive amas... mova dRe da rac ki SegiZenia yvelafers dakargav. am dRis dadgoma gaSinebs da amitomac xar ase gafacicebuli, – qurdebs ufrTxi, Jangs, moxucebulobas da sxva amisTanebs.  

       tyeSi es ar aris, – niSnis mogeba da SedarebiTobis xarjze simboluri gandideba arabunebrivia da imitom. gana aq mgeli cxvars ar Wams? Wams, rogor ara, magram mxolod imitom, rom muceli amoivsos da Tavisi mgluri cxovreba gaixangrZlivos, lekvebi dayaros, iwanwalos da cxovrebis bolomde imgelos. nadiri zomaze mets ar moinadirebs, _ es rom qnas, gaRordeba, avad Seiqmneba da Tavs daiRupavs, _ mglobas dakargavs. mgeli mgels gajibrebiT imas ar wauymuvlebs, Senze meti movkalio, – arafris maqnisia aseTi qceva da, Tavisi mgluri goneba saimisod ki yofnis rom Jami amaze uqmad ar xarjos. mayvlis buCqic gana niSnis mogebiT mkawravs? – ara, aseTebi aq ar xdeba. es tyea, bunebrivia, buneba ki uflis usulo qmnilebaa, romelsac, madloba RmerTs, imis Wkua da neba ar Seswevs, jibriTa da gandidebis wyurviliT adamianiviT da eSmakiviT Tavi gadaigvaros. buCqi buCqs ar edareba, cxvari cxvars da mgeli mgels. amitomac miyvars aqauroba, aqauri azri, veluroba da bunebrivi siswore.

       kacobriobas gandidebis seni ise Seyria, oRondac aravin majoboso, amaoebis ufskrulSi ukve ra xania TaviT iCexeba. – ase qeni adamiano! pirveloba, Tudnac sakuTari Tavis daRupvaSi, aravis dauTmo. mere kidev iseTebic gamoCndebian, Cven es siave ar gvWirso, ificebian xolme. yvelaze metad amaT unda erido, _ mwerloben, filosofosoben, Tavi mdablad uWiravT, arada... zustad igive seniT arian Sepyrobilebi, _ TavianTi TavmdablobiT da sibrZniT undaT xalxisgan aRiarebis mopoveba, Tavis Tavis mTels erebze da qveyanaze waWarbeba da Tavis gamoCena. amisTanebs eride da araferi daujero-meTqi, aki giTxari. mec nu damijereb, – ra ici, iqneb mec SedarebiTobiT Tavis gamoCenisTvis vwer, gandidebisTvis vlayfob, imisTvis vqadageb, rom Cemi gonebis upiratesoba kacobriobas vamcno da mTeli Cemi ususuri arseba TviTkmayofilebis fuWi grZnobiT avifuo, – ar damijero: marTali rom viyo, simarTlis Tqmas mainc ver SevZlebdi, _ azri ar meyofoda da sityva damakldeboda, – adamianis azri xom sustia da ususuri, ena kidev, xo, Tundac es dalocvili qarTuli ena, romelic CemTvis mSobliuria da utkbesi, simarTlis gadmosacemad es enac naklovania da metad uZluri. simarTlis mosmena Tu ginda, aravis usmino RmerTis garda, yvela danarCeni sulieri mcdaria da sruli WeSmaritebisTvis Seusabamo, _ Seqmnilsa da naSobs arafris srulyofis Zala ar Seswevs, miTumetes simarTlis, _ TviTon ra icis rom Sen gamcnos? da romc icodes, ra eniT gamcnos? da romc ametyveldes da gamcnos, aseTi mcneba cudis mets arafers mogitans, – macnes da cnobas zomaze metad daafaseb, Seiyvareb, gaakerpeb da simarTlis wyaros WeSmarit saTaves, RmerTs daiviwyeb. ifrTxile adamiano, rom simarTlis ZiebaSi SemTxveviT avi ram ar Seimecno...   

20 ianvari, 2008 weli 

 

bunebis piri 6: bunebis nakli da sulis wyurvili

      Tergo, xom xar swrafi da Seupovari, mRvrie da yovlis SemZvreli, klde-Rres awydebi, Seni ZaliT da kacobiT yvelas da yvelafers CanTqmas upireb, magram... araraoba xar! iliasTan Sen ras moxval, Se usulo Sena?! ilia Senze ufro swrafi, Seupovari, mRvrie da yovlismomcvelia. Sen yvelas axrCob da yvelafers lewav, ilia yvelas acocxlebs da yvelafers aduRabebs. Sen uazrod Smagob, uxeSob, tortmanob, ilia azriT fiqrobs, grZnobs da moqmedebs. ilias frCxilad ar Rirxar, gesmis?! gesmis, TviTkmayofilo veluro?! ilias frCxiladac ar Rirxar-meTqi!!!

       voldenis tbao[3], wmidav da kamkamav, Cemi fiqris naTliav, nakurTxo wyalo... xom xar lamazi da ubiwo, wrfeli da brZeni, mSobliuri, magram... Torou Senze kidev ufro wmida, kamkama, ubiwo, wrfeli, brZeni da kidev ufro metad mSobliuria. Sen rom giyureb, sakuTar Tavs vtiri, Torous rom vuyureb, sakuTari Tavi maviwydeba da samSoblos vglovob, qveyanas, adamians...

       mTao likabetus, ra xelma agzida da agamaRla, aTenis saocrebav? didi xar, kir-qviT Sekruli da aTenis bumberazi mfarveli... Crdilav mTels eladas, magram... sokrate Tavisi azris bumberazobiT, qcevis udrekelobiT da sulis sigrZeliT Senc gCrdilavs da gaCiavebs da Sens mier daCrdilul mTels eladasac.
 
       oboleTis tyeo, datyvevebuli mesxeTis cremliano Tvalo da wmida gvirgvino, dabadebidan miyvarxar, fiqriano mesxo, magram... gamaxsendeba mamaCemis obloba da fiqri, misi kacoba da qarTveloba da... vmcirdebi, _ sulis yoveli nakvTiT vgrZnob Cems mwerobas, TvalT mibneldeba da veRar gxedav... veRarafers vxedav, veravis...

       amas mokled vityvi: wmida miwis naxva ar minda! ar minda ierusalimi! arc aToni! arc galilea!!! adamiano, iesu SeuSvi Sens sulSi da wmida miwis yoveli nagleji swored am sulis ubeSi geqneba.

       bunebav, oboli rom ar viyo, ra minda me Sens wiaRSi... mkvdaria Cemi ilia da Torou, sokrate da mamaCemi... adamianebSi kidev RmerTs ver vxedav, Torem... SenTan fexs ar davadgavdi. axla sxva gza ar maqvs, _ isev Tergi, voldeni, likabetusi, oboleTi da galilea... isev tye-Rre Zrwola da martod xetiali.

4 ianvari, 2008 weli      

 

bunebis piri 7: WinWriT dasusxuli
 
      aTi welia saqarTvelo TvaliT ar minaxavs. siRaribem gadamiWra fesvebi da ucxoeTSi gamomaZeva. aqac soflad davsaxldi. miyvars sofeli, _ sivrce, simSvide da Cumi myudroeba.

       Cemi saxlis ukan patara tyea. am tyeSi patara saqarTveloa. ar gjera? Tavidan mec ar mjeroda, meucxoeboda, ver veguebodi, mSobliuri ar aris-meTqi, wyromiT viZaxdi. mere kargad davakvirdi da bevri qarTuli davinaxe erTi SexedviT ucxo miwis am velur bunebaSi: 

       gana es vardkaWaWebi qarTuli araa? vargavis mindvrebSi swored am famfaras, diyas, nacarqaTamas da bolokuras ar krefdnen xolme qalebi? dandurs Sexede, _ nebieri, gegoneba, alaznis velze gaTxlaSulao. kldis Tavze gamefebuli tirifebi rusTavs magonebs, mtkvris pirs, bavSobas... beberi TuTebic usaTuod iqauria, mis ZirSi amoxeTqili manWkvalac, fiTri rom fiTria, aq esec Semiyvarda, _ qarTuls hgavs da imitom... arada, ra fiTriani qveyanaa Cemi saqarTvelo... _ tyeca da sofelic. es Tu ici ra aris? endroa, dalocvili. Sen warmoidgine, SarSan aRdgomisTvis kvercxebic SevRebe. zemoT, kordze Taxvis naTxralebs xom xedav? _ sul Cemi qnaria. gaxsovs mama rogor gaswavlida es gvimraa, es mravalZarRva, es matitelao? vefxistyaosanSi sityva nari rom amoikiTxe da mere mtkvris piras amosuli mamam rom ganaxa, es Tu gaxsovs? barva daBbostnis Wangisgan gamargvla? – xom xedav, miwa miwaa da sofeli _ sofeli, _ aqac uamravi Wangaa modebuli, zogi tyes emtereba, zogi _ qveyanas. xvdebi? _ qveyana ucxoa, magram buneba erTia, _ nu Zraxav am miwas, codvas nu iqm, RmrTis samdurav sityvas nu ityvi, nu ityvi mZuls, mSobliuri ar ariso, _ kidev geubnebi, saqarTveloSi xalxSic da tyeSic igive Wanga da fiTria modebuli, rac aq... Tavidan mec gamiZnelda amis dajereba. mere erT dRes sokos vWridi da SemTxveviT WinWarze momixvda xeli. au, ra davisusxe!!! gavmwardi, Tvalebidan cremlebi gadmomcvivda da brazi yelSi momawva, _ xo, zustad ise, rogorc saqarTveloSi. gamaxsenda qarTuli susxi, Suri da gautanloba, qarTuli sixarbe, kerZo gulisTqma da amiT gamowveuli sayovelTao Cagvra da sajaro siRaribe, qarTveli qalis Wori da usaqmuroba, qarTveli kacis loToba da igive usaqmuroba, naTesavuri mtroba da mezobluri zesTamCenoba, megobruli RvarZli da col-qmruli Ralati... Ralati, Ralati, Ralati, Ralati!!! Ralati yvelgan da yovelTvis!!! yvelas da yvelafris!!! Ralati zemoT da qvemoT, aqeT da iqiT, dasavleTiT da aRmosavleTiT!!! Ralati, gesmis?! _ erTi xelis meores Ralati, xorcis mier sakuTari sulis Ralati, Zmis mier Zmis, colis mier qmris da... kerZod Tavisi Tavis da... saerTod da erTad eris, kacobriobis da RmerTis ganuwyveteli Ralati, Ralati da isev Ralati! 

       yovel SabaT-kviras movixurav Cems labadas, davuyvebi mayvlian biliks, gadavkveTav Reles, veferebi mindorSi mobneul yviTel babuawverebs, _ vtkbebi, vmSviddebi, vbednierdebi... Camovdivar tyeSi, movnaxav buCqad amosul WinWars, movwyvet, movisusxav xelebs, fexebs, bolos saxesac, simwriT daviwvebi, momagondeba saqarTvelo, tkiviliT maxsendeba qarTuli boroteba da ase ucremlod atkivebuli, qarTvelad xelaxla monaTluli mamluqi isev qarTuli suliT gamsWvaluli vubrundebi Cems amJamindel saxl-kars, _ WinWriT dasusxuls ra damaviwyebs Cems bunebas, Cems ers, Cems saqarTvelos...

19 Tebervali, 2008 weli    

[1]sacecxle _ qarTuli sityvaa da Turqulad buxars niSnavs.

[2]zesTamCenoba _ qarTuli sityvaa da uxvi siamayiT gamsWvaluls da Tavis gamomCens niSnavs. samwuxarod dRes qarTvelebi am azris gamosaxatavad sparsul sityvas, “ampartavnebas” xmaroben.

[3]voldeni _ Walden Pond _ tba masaCusecis StatSi, sadac didi ianki filosofosi da patrioti, henri deivid Torou ganmartovda da xis qoxSi ori weli icxovra da imoRvaweva. Torous yvelaze cnobil Sromasac “voldeni” hqvia.