noqturni[1] 1:cxovrebis qadageba

 

      ar mebralebi. Senive xeliT gaiTxare martoobis uZiro saflavi. axia Senze Wiri da varami. araraoba xar, _ sisxlis cremli gdis da aravin giSrobs, martoobis Sxamiani isriT gulSi sasikvdilod daWrili ganwiruli Rrialeb da kaciSvili mSveleli ar gyavs, obloba gaxrCobs, uimedobiT yelgafatruli Rafav suls da ise mokvdebi, rom erTi marTali cremli ar moxvdeba ekliT da jagiT damuwukebul Sens upatronod migdebul da gaveranebul saflavs. Rirsi xar Cemi maxvrali xeliT dResve dagce gulSi dana da binZuri RoriviT unamusod dagkla, magram Seni sijiutiT, Sen rom sindiss, guladobas da rwmenas eZaxi, azartSi ise Semiyvane, Seni utvino Tavis erTianad dasamarebas mirCevnia, ena Cavslapo da moTminebiT gadevno Tval-yuri Zalumi gonebiT, mamaci guliT da spetaki suliT dRiTi-dRe rogor Seucnobad moiwamlav yoveldRiur yofas, rogor elviseburad daingrev warsulis sevdian sasaxleSi imediT agebul sanukvari ocnebis gamWvirvale koSkebs, da darCenil cxovrebas, nebsiT Tu uneblieT, ulmoblad da umowyalod rogor gainadgureb, sakuTari uTaobiT sakuTar Tavs samudamod rogor daisamareb.

 

       dagaviwyda?! ramdenjer SegTavaze umecrebis arxeini, mSvidi da uSfoTveli gza? vinaa axla umecari, Sen, WeSmariti ganaTlebiT goneba-gaSavebuli, spetaki siyvaruliT guldaglejili da ulevi sikeTiT sul-CafurTxebuli moazrovne, Tu gaunaTlebeli, sulwamxdari da ukeTuri briyvi, romelmac mTeli Tavisi Seugnebeli cxovreba sizarmacesa da ugunurebaSi gulubryvilo udardelobiT Segnebulad ganvlo? masxara xar! Cemi takimasxara! ggonia, Cems mier SemoTavazebul umecrebis tkbil qrTamze mkacri uari Tqvi, win aRmideqi da damamarcxe, magram, xom xedav, saboloo jamSi ra gamodis? _ Cems dakrulze Senc iseve mardad cekvav da TamaSob, rogorc gonebiT brma, suliT yru da guliT munji utvino maswavlebeli, gonieri qurdi, gacveTili vaWari, usamarTlo msajuli, zarmaci muSa, orpiri mRvdeli, RmrTismgmobi mecnieri, yalbi mrCeveli, loTi, SfoTi da naZirala. gansxvaveba imaSia, Sen marto da sasowarkveTili suldgmulob da, Tanac ratomRac ise darwmunebulxar sakuTari gonebis gamWriaxobaSi, sulis siwmindeSi da gulis siwrfeleSi, rom, sacodavad da Sesabralisad mTeli Seni arsebiT gwams, damamarcxe da sabolood bolo momiRe, _ vai Sens patrons, ubedurs!!!

 

       xom kargad uwyi sakuTari ubeduri yofis tkivili, cremli da sasowarkveTa, magram Tavs imSvideb, _ Cemnair marTals da daCagruls dedamiwis zurgze kacs ar gauvliao. vai Se Stero, Sena! siamayis matls rom dauRrRnia Seni “brwyinvale” gonebis dangreuli galavani da “spetaki” sulis dampali qerqi, eg Tu ici?! aki gonieri da Tavmdabali var, da gaRrwnili sazogadoebis, brbos, ugunurTa xrovis aRiarebas ar veZebo? crupentelav, imedebi unda gagicruo! _ Senze bevrad gonierebisTvis, spetakebisTvis da guladebisTvis amibnevia gza-kvali, damiRupavs da Senze bevrad uares dReSic Camigdia.

 

       yurebs nu Camoyri, Cemo patara masxarav. gaiRime, gaiRime ramdenadac SegiZlia da, aba Sen ici, “sapatiod” Seasrule SenTvis mikuTvnebuli mxiaruli Tojinis sevdiani roli. axti, daxti,  gamiZaliandi da kidev ufro aibnie gza-kvali, kidev ufro saguldagulod gaiblande cxovrebis monobis uxilav ZafebSi. Cemo Tojinav, Cemo braziano, urCo da daumorCilebelo Tojinav, Cemo patara briyvo da sayvarelo sulelo _ adamiano. kmara, nu tiri, _ cxovreba grZeldeba...

 

26 marti, 2004 weli

 

 

 

noqturni 2: ori oboli

 

      _ nu tiri. ra iyo, ra mogivida?

 

       _ mama menatreba.

 

       _ didi xania rac ar ginaxavs?

 

       _ ara, sul axlaxans davobldi. ici, mamas Zalian vuyvardi. Zalian. Zalian. diliT nebas mrTavda sawolSi Cavgorebodi. mivekrobodi saguleze da gavinabebodi xolme daTvis beliviT. msiamovnebda misi siTbo, sunTqva da guliscema. o, rogor tkbilad maxsovs mquxare leqsis omaxianad warmoTqmis Jams mamaCemis Rrma da fiqrmokrefili xma, an im Jams, roca, mTeli eris dardiT da tkiviliT gajerebuli, wuxiliT mikiTxavda deda istoriis gaxunebul furclebs. tyeSi mivyavdi xolme... sokoze, Tan maswavlida xeebis, balaxebis, sokoebis saxelebs. es rcxilaa, es wifeli, amas diyas veZaxiT, amas matitelaso... es famfaraa, gaxsovdes, omis Jams eri SimSiliT sikvdils aman gadaarCinao. eh, maxsovs, maxsovs... rogor ar maxsovs. isic kargad maxsovs gulamoskvnili Zilis win rogor vtirodi, _ umamobis da oblobis meSinoda. gauCinardeboda xolme buCqnarSi xan da xan. me ki gatrunuli videqi da aRaJRaJebul loyebs boRmamoreul cremlebs simwriT da tkiviliT gulmokluli vaserinebdi. gamoCndeboda mere kalmaxa sokoTi xelebdabalTuli, RimiliT moapobda uRrani tyis jurRmuleTs, rom Cemi norCi guli bavSuri bednierebiT aRevso da gaexarebina. o, rogor menatreba mamaCemi, rogor tkbilad maxsovs misi gonieri Tvalebis uSreti siTbo da alersi. Sen? ras gaCumebulxar? nuTu mama ar genatreba?

 

       _ mama arasodes myolia, arc siTbo maxsovs, arc alersi, arc sixaruli... aqamde arc vicodi mama aseTi sanatreli Tu iyo. ho, axla ki menatreba, Zalian menatreba... SensaviT...

 

6 aprili, 2004 weli

 

 

noqturni 3: amonaxeTqi

 

       zecav! zecav! boroti dardis Se pirSavo jurRmuleTo! ras CamoTalxulxar?! ganaTdi! gaciskrovndi! gaixare! Cven, kacT, fuWi TanagrZnoba ara gvWirdeba, TviTon movuvliT sakuTar Wirsa da varams, Sen ki gaTendi, mwuxri ganagde da moCvenebiT Wirisuflobasac moeSvi, Torem iseTs giRrialeb, lega sxeuli SiSisagan Segitortmandes, dedamiwis codvil zurgze Tavzardacemulma gaadino zRarTani da sul nacartutad iqce. gaTendi! gaTendi-meTqi! gana sakmar mwuxarebas ar vuZlebT, Ram-RamobiT Seni mwuxric rom ar dagvematos xolme?! gaTendi-meTqi! gaTendi! daanTe da aakaSkaSe sixarulis koconi, imedi da rwmena amoamzeure, rom adamis da evis isedac sasowarkveTil da dakninebul naSiers simxneve da Zalumoba Sehmato, cxovreba gauxaliso, Torem, vera hxedav?! cremli gvaxrCobs! dRisiT vSromobT, vwvalobT, av-vkargianobT... RamiT ki sinanulis cremliT viRvrebiT. eh! ras gerCi! Turme CvenTvis sinanulis grZnobis mogvra yofila Seni arc Tu ise dasaZraxi saqme da xeloba. magram ara, mainc... mainc, RmerTis sjuli, gaTendi! gaTendi! gaTendi-meTqi! gaTendi da cxovreba gagvixalise!

 

14 prili, 2004    

 

                  

 

 

 

noqturni 4: cremliT gamozrdili

 

dedamiwav, gulSematkivari mogivedi. damSviddi Tavminebebulo, marto aRar xar. nu oxrav, nu kvnesi, RapaRupiT msxvil-msxvil cremlebs nuRa Rvri. dRe-yovel ugemuri yofa advili rodia, magram gaZleba gmarTebs. arada me vin var, Rlapi, Sen rom ase Wkuas garigeb. ar miwyino. Rlapi rom var, isev Seni Rlapi var, adamianebis mier mec SensaviT gulmokluli, mokveTili da daoblebuli. Sen Semikedle, miSvile da gamomzarde. sul qorfa viyav, rom davobldi. briyvma ugzo-ukvlod aRma-daRma viwanwale, bolos saso warmekveTa, avkankaldi, muxlebze daveci da geTayvane. gaxsovs rogori mSobliuri mxurvalebiT makoce? deda-miwav-meTqi, _ CagCurCule da gulze migekari... Sen ki dedis daZaxebaze atirdi da, tkbili cremlebis saxiT, me, obols, sazrdo gamiCine. fexze damayene. gamomzarde. axla kaci var. sazrdos CemiT vSoulob. xoda, deda-Svilobas, nu tiri, Torem, Seni cremlebis mduRarebiT, suli-guli mefufqeba.

 

ra vqna? riTi giwamlo? Cumad dardob da aras meubnebi. xandaxan yurs Tu movkrav rames, isic Ram-RamobiT, roca, mTeli dRis jafiT daqanculi da damwuxrebuli, mtkivneulad amoioxreb xolme. im dRes Tavi veRar Seikave da miTxari, daviRale adamianebis amdeni sicruiT da usaqmurobiTo. vici, gana ar vici? mec xom maTi modgmisa var, mec xom met-naklebad igive seniT var dasneulebuli, mec xom adamiani var... vici, Cveni xaTriT mouRalavad brunav da trialeb, ara gvzardebi, rom dRis siTbo da sinaTle Cveni modgmis xan erT mxares miawodo, xanac meores. rogor guliT gwadia, Sromisa da sikeTisTvis, Cven, ugunurT, dRe gviboZo. samagieros riRaTi gixdiT? Sens wyalobas usaqmurobaSi, tyuilSi da borotebaSi vflangavT. maS kaco! usaqmuroba da tyuili gana TavisTavad boroteba ar aris?! ai ase vlevT dRes... dRes mosdevs Rame, Rames, _ xvale, zeg, mazeg... da mTeli Cveni ubadruki sicocxle amgvar umizno TamaSSi iflangeba, ileva da iwureba.

 

unda giSvelo, _ unda viSromo, ofli vRvaro, viwvalo da gavitanjo, gavir-eSmakebuli da gazarmacebuli kacobriobisTvis misabaZ magaliTad unda viqce. unda davWeqo, avdidde, avzvirTde da kacTasamyofeli rixiT da omaxiT kidiT-kidemde avaxmauro.

 

nu tiri dedamiwav. Worsa da layafs yurs nu ugdeb. kaci-Svili Seni mSveleli ar ariso, getyvian. Seni kacic me var da Svilic, Seni cremliT gamozrdili da dakacebuli Svili var. damSviddi Tavminebebulo, marto aRar xar, _ Svili dagibrunda.

 

17 aprili, 2004

 

 

noqturni 5: Zirgavardnili ocneba

 

wyurvili maxrCobs. siyvarulis? xo, albaT. Zirgavardnil ocnebas siyvaruli rogor movTxovo? SemiyvardiT kekluco varskvlavebo, SemiyvardiT, avmCatdi da Tav-qudmoglejili gamogekideT. macdurno! cialiT momxibleT. xan erTs davwvdi, xan meores. jer xom win da ukan amdeni rbeniTa da daWerobanis TamaSiT davixarje, mere imedgacruebam momiRo bolo, _ aki giTxariT, cialiT momxibleT da damabrmaveT-meTqi. arada ramdenjerac mogiaxlovdiT da sakocnelad dagwvdiT, imdenjer mwared gamicrueT imedi. sadRa iyo Tqveni siTbo da brwyinvaleba, riTic Soridan ase erTbaSad mipyrobdiT da mamonebdiT. gulcivi da Sav-bneli rame yofilxarT, Tqve wyeulno, Tqvena. gvianRa mivxvdi, rom es xanmokle ciali da brwyinvalebac, Tqven ki ar gekuTvniT, aramed yalbia da monapari, _ mzisgan iparavT. wvrilmano qurdebo, danaSauls migixvdiT, magram sicocxles Tqvens dasjas ar Sevalev, ­_ amis arc Jamis maqvs da arc ufleba. mze, _ ai namdvili silamaze, siTbo, Rirseuli brwyinvaleba, ubiwo da Tavmdabali mSveniereba! ai, me sabralos,  vin unda Semyvareboda da Tavi visTvis unda Semeyvarebina. ai msxverplad visTvis unda meboZa Jami, Zalisxmeva, Cemi Zalumi goneba, erT dros spetaki suli, guli da siyvaruli. axla, axla... ho, axla, albaT, yvelaferi Zalze gviania...

 

22 Aprili, 2004

 

 

noqturni 6: “1940-2003”

 

nacrisferi warwera saflavis qvaze:

 

“1940-2003”

 

ra damiSava axla me am sawyalma ostatma? an cudi da uSveri gana ra mkadra? movuRere muSti da cema-tyepiT davemuqre am xnis kacs... Tan gacofebuli vRrialebdi, gaamuqe! gaamuqe! gazarde eg xazi-meTqi! is kidev gulamoskvnili memudareboda, nu, mamacxonebulo, amaze mets ver amovtvifrav, gavtexavT qvaso... eh! arada rogor ginda gonieri kacis Zlier azriani cxovreba am patara xazSi moaTavso da Catio... ulevi fiqri, uSreti dardi, cremli, sixaruli, sasowarkveTa, sevdiani Rimili, imedi, rwmena da siyvaruli... RmerTo, mTeli qveynis azrisa da sispetakis gamonaJuri mamaCemis erTi gonieri da alersiani gamoxedva am erTi bewo nacrisfer xazis irib marwuxebSi rogor Cavsva? daoblebuls da boRmamoreuls zogjer ise minda eg xazi mTels dedamiwas erTi xelis mosmiT gadavusva, movwyde, movikveTo da yovelives erTbaSad ganvudge, magram jer amis arc Zala maqvs da arc ufleba, _ tkbil-mware bavSvoba am cicqna xazSi unda Cavtio da mamasTan erTad samudamod davasaflavo, mere ki... vnaxoT.

 

29 aprili, 2004

 

[1]noqturni _ Nocturne – laTinuri sityvaa da niSnavs saRamos sizmareul, mSvid, sasiamovno musikas. musikasa da mxatvrobaSi damkvidrda XIX saukunis frangulidan “Nocturne”, laTinuri fuZe “Nocturnus”, anu “Ramis”.